I'm cold and I think I need a hug.

I think it may be the weather. But I feel mentally cold.

I cant’ remember the last time I was hugged. A deep bone crushing hug & the kind were I can feel the imprint of your body.

I miss him sooo much! We tried to be friends; we tried to keep the talk PG. But every fucking time the conversation turned flirty, we’d remember the last stolen moment we had together & after that early morning we both knew that we had to pull back the rains or we couldn’t remain friends. We both are terrified they will catch the glances, the smirks or the embraces that lasted a little too long for friends.

When I talk to his wife sometimes I can hear him in the background & my heart will skip a beat remembering his hands on my body. And it's worse when the 4 of us get together. I catch him looking at me & I almost see a glimmer of longing!

Nice Surprise

Look what was in my inbox this morning...

I want you here, now

right now

immediately

I want to make love to you.

I need to make love to you

with my eyes,

my hands,

my body

my soul.

You ignite my firey passion

I need you to unlock

All my secret desires.

That man has a way with words! Have you ever had a lover who just "got" you? The kind of lover where you don't have to say two words? Where a look is all you need or want? I'm looking for that in my "real" life.. Should I base a relationship on sexual chemistry?

Just for a spilt second

Our eyes locked for a moment & I held my breath.
I would have surrender to your touch so thank god you didn't dare!

I thought this would fade over time & things would move on.
But every time I see you my heart beats faster & a desire washes over me.

Can you tell? Do you care?

Things are easily tossed out but memories stick around.

Today I tore-up a part of you...

The text where you said you held my sweater for months until it no longer smelled like me.
The text where you said I'd taken up permanent resident in your heart. Where you said I have a hold of you.

But it can't erase the memory when we laid in bed for a stolen moment & you whispered "Why do things seem so right & easy with you" I was lost in your embrace & didn't have an answer. As I still don't

Do you think of that early morning, looking for shooting stars?

Love or Lust

Love is like looking into your eyes and seeing and endless reflection

Love is like the breath that exhales from our lips

The animalistic thrusts both us of desire

The sound of our uncontrollable moans that echo

The perfume of our fluids mixture

The wetness of our skin pressing together

My nails dig in your covering which creates a line between lust and love

You hear me whisper fuck me harder, fuck me deeper

But really I’m begging you to love me harder, and love me deeper

We become one as my legs are wrapped around your strong shoulders

Your hands holding my face, whipping the tears you crafted

Tears of love, tears of joy, tears of sadness as this is only a dream.

A note for you...

You make my skin wet & my pulse race...

When will I feel your body against mine?

You make my mind run wild & my nights lonely...

When will I hear you call out my name?

Will your hold over me lessen with time?

What have you done to me?

Will I feel this way once we are together?

Addicted to...

Am I addicted to love, the feeling of love or being loved?

Butterflies... 1st kisses... Anticipation.

Late night phone calls, getting to know someone, I like it all.

I love finding new chemistry, new people & something new about myself.

I find something new about myself if every relationship I have.