Just when I thought...

I ran into Toy last week & we finally "hooked" up! Sweet Jesus, that took long enough.
And just when I thought things would start moving along he tells me the next 4 months he's going to be touring. Shit, back to square one & I didn't take this news as graciously as I should have. I realize he didn't have time to tell me as we were tearing into each other or didn't want to ruin the mood or whatever, but I'm a little pissed or whatever you call it, because he didn't say anything the last two months of chatting/texting. Did I just get played? The sex was great & I needed it, badly. But come on, he knew I'm looking for a recurring playmate & knows I'm not keen to one day/night stands.

My question, dear readers is.. Should I have been gracious & realize he is very busy & it just slipped his mind. Or did I do the right thing in saying I deserve a little more consideration & I'm upset for selfish reasons?

he relays on me to make himself feel like a good lover

A needs me to have an orgasm, he relays on me to make himself feel like a good lover. It's a talk I have often with my husband, Orgasms. I don't need to have one every time we have sex. I tell him it's like window shopping; I have fun doing it & don't necessarily need to buy something. His comeback is always the same; I need you to have one so I feel like a good lover.. WTF! I have three big problems with that statement. 1st being; it seems very selfish, 2nd it puts a ton pressure on me & lastly it shows no confidence.

Toy is busy again with work & wife. I'm thinking the stars will never fall into place.

Chatted with C a little this morning. I said I was sorry for my mood yesterday. He said no problem, everyone has those days. Sometimes I think he's too nice or too fake. If I would have talked like that around my husband he would have called me a bitch. Who is right?