A deep desire

A have a desire to be the one you fall asleep with, the one you wake up to & the one you hold.
My skin can still feel your hands touching me.
My eyes can still see your smirk as you tease me.
But my heart as forgotten the rhythm it would beat.

My confusing world would melt around me.

I often left thinking about the path we both chose & how it might be different if we both let our guard down, if we surrendered to the chemistry & if we stopped thinking about the consequent.

I didn't want to lose a friendship & you didn't want to lose a wife.